Thursday, September 29, 2011

Day 4: A Woman of Confidence

God is apparently trying to tell me something. I’ve always valued myself as being a friend someone could confide in, because I know how to keep a secret. However, God must think otherwise, because today’s lesson in, Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be, was nearly the same lesson I got in my Joyce Meyer devotional, Hearing From God Each Morning.

Partow writes, “Be trustworthy in secret things so God can have full confidence that you will bring him good, not harm, all the days of your life.” And Joyce explains, “What we pray about is between us and God…”

Oh boy…what have I done?

I usually know when God is speaking to me, because He will always confirm it at least twice, almost immediately. Today, though, I’m confused because I don’t tend to tell anyone much of anything. I probably would though if I had more people to tell, but since I don’t, I can’t. I do tell Jared everything, and I’m pretty sure that’s okay…or is it?

Along with the Proverbs 31 study, I’m also studying, The Prayer of Jabez, with my husband Jared, and yesterday I had my first encounter being able to use the principles of Jabez and I think I may have boasted about it a little bit on Facebook. In my jest, I believed I was giving God the glory, but in hindsight, I think I may have made it look as if I had done something important. I was just so excited that the prayer works that I felt I needed to shout it from the rooftops, but apparently God is showing me to keep the miracles a secret for now.

Sometimes I feel the need to share what God has shared with me in my private time so that when the promise passes, I can say, “See! God said He’d do this and He did!” My intentions are good, but I think it’s time to resist the urge to share the secrets God tells me, even if it is about me. I just get so excited when God moves in my life….don’t you? Don’t you sometimes just feel like you’ll explode if you don’t share what God did in your life?

I need to learn to zip my lip. God needs someone He can confide in, and I desperately want to be that person! So when He tells me something, and I want to share it, I need to seek His permission first, just as I would with anyone else’s secret.

I’m going to have to "learn to discern" what’s a secret and what’s not, and that may be my biggest obstacle.

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